follow your heart

The other weekend Matt and I went hiking with his parents. I had never been to the trail before. It was beautiful; a great escape from the overwhelming reality at school.

As we were driving home, I had no idea where we were. I didn't know how to get home on my own.

It didn't occur to me just how lost I was until a couple of days ago when I was thinking back on our trip: a whole half an hour drive and I had absolutely no clue where I was going. No clue.

I just trusted.

I sat back and went along for ride. I trusted that Matt knew where we were going and that he would take care of me.

What a liberating feeling, having such complete trust in someone so much that you are able to let down your guard and let that person carry you.

It's such a simple thing, yet it's so hard for me to do. I am used to taking care of myself and being strong for everyone else. But, in that moment, I saw how easy, not scary or worrisome, it was to let someone else take care of me. I saw that someone else can help guide my path and know what is best for me, for us. I saw that trusting is good, as long as I am willing to forget my fears.

It's okay, it's all going to be okay. Because I trust.

friendly

Lately, I have felt really thankful for some very special people in my life. 

Senior year is busy and scary and tough, but these people help me temporarily forget about how stressed or worried I am. These are the people who I can have a serious, intimate talk with one minute then joke around with the next. These are the people who are helping create my senior year, not just have a role in. 

It's the friend who...

brings me a pumpkin spice latte just because, or

makes everyone pancakes at midnight when we are having a study party, or

goes to dinner with me spur of the moment, or

plans trips to different places for concerts or visiting, or

texts me just to say that they missed me.

It's the friends that I can count on to be there for me, good times or bad. They will always take care of me and look out for my best interests. These friends will love me no matter what. 

And I am so thankful for those people. It's because they love me and give so much of themselves to me that I am able to love them back even more. Because of them I am a better person.

These are the people who will stay with me once senior year has flown by and when Virginia Tech becomes just a memory. These people will last beyond my short four years here, which makes leaving here not as scary because they will be going with me.